Hey, Yah You……You’re Being Followed!



Were it any other day, I probably wouldn’t have come to a place like this. But, today….today for some cosmic reason, I sought it out. It was as if God himself, brought me here. As if, all of the planets in the universe aligned, and I was pulled, as if by some gravitational force, deep within.

I would never be so bold as to think that I could stand out in a crowd like this, or, any for that matter. So, I wait for a moment, scanning faces, catching tidbits of conversations as they flash past me. Thought provoking, intellectual, funny, sad. They’re oppressive, but, more so, they’re freeing, mind numbing, inspirational.

My heart races, my palms sweat, my stomach drops, my nerves are shot……I’m a wreck!

Do I care if anyone notices me, or, do I take my newfound membership, and run? Never to use it again. Until, with time, my pass to the world fades from memory, lost, forgotten. Or, do I remain, as a Wallflower, in the shadow, on the sideline, just waiting for someone, anyone, to notice my presence.

I’ve decided to stay, that I don’t care, that here, there is a place for everyone, I’ll find my niche, and leave my mark. I’ll take this one day at a time, and, maybe, just maybe, I’ll find my voice, and contribute to the conversation.

I feel as though I’m being swallowed alive in a sea of people. Seemingly, the entire Earth’s population, has converged into this one place. I’m a small fish, in a very, very large pond.

So, what are the odds, that the very first time I would enter this new, and foreign place, I would find you? How could one person be so lucky? A mere One, among the masses. Standing out from the crowd, there you were. How fortuitous.

I find myself reading of your thoughts, taking them all in. I love the way your mouth forms those sweet, sweet, words, and I want more of you. You, with your quick wit, and, uncanny ability to deliver the perfect punch line. You make me laugh. You, with stories of your past, stories of your present, and, dreams of your future. You tell my life with your words. You, with your pain, your suffering, your surviving. You make me cry, and want to reach out, to help. You, with your worldly insights, your experiences, your journeys. You make me want more out of life. You, with your thought provoking arguments. You’ve made me angry, and reconsider.

Have you noticed me, that I’m here, following you? Does it excite you to know that you have an admirer? As, I’m sure that you have many. Will I ever catch your eye, as you have mine? Do you not know that you need me too? One chance, that’s all I ask…..because, I need you.

You inspire me….To write beautiful lines of poetry, and verse. To find the beauty, in that which isn’t. To follow my dreams, and make them a reality. To change the world, one thought, one action, one person, at a time. To heal, to grow, to give. On so many levels, I’ve changed.

I feel as though I’m obsessing, obsessing over every facet of you. There simply aren’t enough hours in the day for me to give, to find out everything that I want to know. Learn everything that I want to learn. See everything that I want to see.

It’s as though I’ve entered a Fantasy Land, Willy Wonka‘s Chocolate Factory. A place where time, nor space exist, and, all things are possible, with just a little imagination. So, I pinch myself.

And, as quickly as you entered my life, you were gone. As if, with one click of the mouse.

What do I do now? What, who will inspire me? You left me with nothing more than words of encouragement, but, I have no voice without you. It’s as though I’ve been stripped of all reality. So, I’ll wait…..with baited breath, I’ll wait. Knowing , that in time, you’ll return to this place, where first I found you.

Do you want me to stay?

….…to follow you another day………


Weekly Writing Challenge – Going Gonzo

My pace is steady, as I manipulate my bike through the bustling crowd darting past me from all directions. The honking horns, and endless chatter on cell phones, is drowned out by my earbuds blairing Gonzo, and the world disappears around me. Careful to avoid stepping on cracks, and rolling my tires over the toes of unsuspecting Rainbow wearers, I keep my head down, and continue on my way. Reaching the corner first, I find myself in the enviable position of head of the pack. It always sucks to be stuck at the back, with those in front of you dictating your pace, or worse, giving you the evil eye for accidentally hitting the heal of their shoe with my front tire, as they take a step forward. Ah, but life is good today. As my tunes fade to a close, and the world comes back to life around me, our light turns green, and the crowd pushes forward.

As I narrow my distance to the far curb, the chatter in my ears is replaced with screams of terror and screeching tires, and the world around me disappearing yet again. No sooner had the screaming in my head stopped, it started again. But this time it sounded different, more familiar, and it took only a second to realize that it was coming from me. As I start to fade out, I’m immediately jolted back by the excruciating pain in my right side, the taste of iron in my mouth, and the soft tickle of warm fingers running down the side of my face to the nape of my neck.

The screaming turned to yelling. As I hear people in the crowd calling out “Stand back, don’t touch him”, “Stop him, stop him….don’t let him leave!!!” and a woman frantically dialing 911. “We need an ambulance! A guy with a bike has been hit by a car that ran a red light, and he’s been impaled by his handle bars, there’s blood everywhere. Yes….yes….no….I told you that I don’t know, but I think he’s dying!! We’re at the corner of 14th & Oak. Hurry, please hurry, we need an ambulance!” All around me are cries of anguish, and whispers of prayers from strangers.

In the background, I can hear the wailing of sirens approaching from the distance, gradually intensifying, as does the pain. As one car approaches, I can see the flicker of blue lights through my closed eyes and the siren abruptly stops. The slamming of the car door tells me that someone official has come to my aid.

“Don’t move son, help is on the way”. At that moment, I knew that I couldn’t have moved lest strings were tied to my wrists & ankles, and someone else was controlling them. I’m sure that the officers simple statement should’ve brought me some kind of comfort, but, oddly enough, I was already comfortable. While I knew of the scene that played out around me, that the pain was still there, somewhere, I was actually at peace. And, while staring at the blue flashing hue through my closed eyelids, I watched as the color slowly faded to white…….. It was in that moment that I realized, that while life was good, death was even sweeter.

“I’ve missed you Son!”

“I’ve missed you too, Mom!”

Poetic Fantasy…..What?

So, this little piece was something that I wrote in about an hour, after a discussion with my 23yo son, who happens to read/write fantasy novels.  Basically, in a nutshell, I was challenged to “attempt” to write Fantasy, and this (“poem”, as he called it) was the result.  Apparently, it’s “discovery writing”, given I had/have no storyline……Huh, who knew?  The names are dumb, but hey, I had to come up with something on the fly.  Feel free to offer feedback, so that I either have something to throw in his face, or, know if crow is gonna be on the menu.   



The darkness flickered of orange and red, as flames danced around the bodies of the departed. Souls lost in battle of a fierce nature, stretched towards the sky, masked by plumes of smoke, while the air was heavy with the mourning or those few that remained. All seemed lost in the aftermath, but, their day of reckoning would come, and, it would come hard, and swift. For no brother shall be lost forever, who’s death is avenged by another, for that is our creed, and what will be the undoing of the damned. The men of my charge that lost both life, and limb, shall strengthen the will of the few that remained, and victory shall be ours, lest we lay with the lost for eternity.

The skies light fell slowly as preparations were made for battle. A battle that would come before the dawn of a new light, and one that we would take to them. As children gathered the horses, and wives readied our gear, we amassed our weapons, and sharpened our swords. The fires burned hot of metal, and the sound of iron on iron was heard above all else, as spear tips and axe heads were forged, each one made for any foe willing to oppose us in battle. The men moved as if one. One man, one village, one right, one family. For the truth was known by all, that if some were not lost, all would be. So we will fight with strength as one, and give offerings of sacrifice to the Gods of Sortia, for our return.
Our men were not gathered to fight for a kingdom of riches, but, rather a village of farmers, gatherers, and hunters. Men willing to die for the right of their wives and children, to remain free of the rule of Cynth, that would just as soon see them dead where they stand.
Our numbers while few, totaled 146 brave men. All husbands, fathers, brothers, and marksmen, rife with determination, at all cost. We would fight to our deaths, as our forefathers before us, if necessary. Leaving but 22 men behind, to stand alone, and protect what is ours, should we fail in our mission.
The army of Cynth, while numerous, where once as we are. Rich with family and crop, they were brothers, fathers, husbands, and slaves only to the land in which they provided for their families. They were under no rule of king, nor sword. They cared not for riches, nor robes, but only for their family, their village, and their honor. They could not know that now, their sacrifice in life would come at a much greater cost, than had their death come young, at the hand of those they now obey. With their villages pillaged and burned, and the bodies of their wives and daughters pierced with flaming arrows, they retreated into their sorrow, and joined that which they despised, for only to save their sons. These men we do not hate, but pity, for their loss in this lifetime has been great. But, for the same purpose that they have chosen to follow the ruler to which we despise, we will strike them down, instantly. For we shall not show allegiance for our son’s sake, but shall show courage and honor for our wives and daughters. For our sons, like their fathers, are warriors, and our name is known. The loss that we’ve felt in this war however, is already great. Though we have not yet met these men in combat, we have once called them Brother. Now, we shall all stare into the eyes of another, until for one, the light fades, and the soul departs. For, this battle shall not cease, until shackles have bound our hands, or, the land has consumed our bodies. As brother to brother, we shall all live together, or we shall all die together. To the end.